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The Finish Line [23 Mar 2011|05:26pm]
[ mood | happy ]

5 more weeks (from this Friday) until graduation and then I am officially back to the real world. I hope it is all as worth it as I hope; it has sure been damn hard but I am just glad it is over at this point. Even though I will be done with full time university I still plan to take some part time extra schooling (special effects make-up, acting, etc.) to help my resume some and for extra skills that may prove useful in the film and music industries. Overall, I won't be as stressed.....or so I hope ;-).

Things have been going pretty fast lately, just celebrated my 22nd birthday as well as my 4 year anniversary with the boy and have been offered a couple jobs up here (these people are just trying to keep me on campus!! lol). I am just crossing my fingers tight in hopes of life in Miami becoming more sure as I get closer to graduation.

A cute side note, I have started drumming more frequently and got in contact today with my old drum teacher to see about taking some lessons again to cure some of this 4 year rust and since he helped me relearn how to play after my first knee surgery, I am pretty sure he can help me now after my second surgery. I am so excited to see him again, he was the best music teacher I ever had! :-)

Alright, that is it for now, I have to rush off to buy materials for my fantasy dress due for next week. Wish me luck!! <3

~Alicole Torren~

Update!! [28 Jan 2011|12:24am]
[ mood | hopeful ]

So, this is my last semester of University (graduating April 29, yay!!) and I feel like there are a lot of things I want to accomplish before I leave. I am technically not leaving until some time in July but I still want to plan for while I am in school because it gives me more time for things to do away from school (if that makes any sense at all). I am just tired of feeling overworked, but hopefully things will become more manageable after I graduate (meaning I can actually schedule a proper sleeping regimen).

In terms of things I have planned, I have a semester filled with tattoo work, photo shoot(s), and all sorts of revamping. Let's hope it all works out!!

~Alicole Torren~ <3

Sew Your Brains Out.... [20 Oct 2010|01:49pm]
[ mood | artistic ]

Oh lordy lordy. I have done more sewing in this semester than I can remember doing in the past. I have done 2 garments and have 2 more to go, plus a possible fashion show (not to mention that I am also doing music ensemble this semester with fresh new musicians). My fingers are raw and my eyes hurt from straining and next semester will be just as bad. I am happy to say, however, that I got the fucking internship at the costume shop!!!! Fuck yeah nigga :-D. I have been volunteering there for a while and was informed that they do not do internships, but when the shop manager (who is super cooler than cool) found out I was doing my internship at the ballet company she said, Oh no, we will let you do one here working on Mizer!!!! Oh mah gaw, I was so happy. I will be doing period clothing men's wear (dublets, breeches, and the works). I will also be doing an independent study next semester sewing 3 garments for 3 different movie genres (horror, sci-fi, and fantasy). So, in essence, I will be sewing my brains out next semester as well but even more so. Additionally, I will be taking a costume crafts class, so fuck yeah! Learning to make hats, masks, dying things, and the like will be so much fun and so useful when I move back down to Miami to work either in the tv costume shop or the theatre one (that all depends on which one pays better, lol). I ain't complaining though because I get to moonlight in other shops after a while if I get higher up in the shop (L.A. and N.Y.C. here I come).

All in all, despite all the work and the looming due dates, I am happy with the way everything is falling into place these last two semesters. I just hope that I can keep up with all the work and try and get more sleep because all this staying up is not helping my health or my weight :-P. Okie dokie, enough writing for now, I need to relax before my next class.


~Alicole Torren~

Oww! [05 Aug 2010|10:28am]
[ mood | Ouchy ]

I finally got the last three of my wisdom teeth pulled and I am hating the sight of food right about now....

Update time:
-I recently lost one of my rattie babies (I miss you Nezz); everytime I talk about it I get choked up. I hate seeing Nazz without her sister :-(.

-I have a new tattoo in memory of family members past.

-I am currently in Miami, going to all doctor's appointments this week(so far, I am awaiting my allergy results test, I had my wisdom teeth pulled, went to the dermatologist formy skin issues, and today I am going to see my awesome orthopedic doc.....Swirsky!!!)

-Jay and I are now living in a huge townhouse with a roommate from my major who I love so much, she is too cool for school. Lol

Ooops, have to cut this short, appointment time! Buh-bye

~Alicole Torren~

More Ink and Metal... [17 Jun 2010|06:28pm]
[ mood | artistic ]

It's that time of summer where friends of mine are getting suspended, pulled, tattooed, and pierced all over the country. Me and Jay have been planning on suspending together for a long time, and it sucks we have to wait another year for that btw, boo! But I might end up doing a pull with a close friend of mine who is scared of the thought but does whatever I say, lol, J/K....well sort of :-P. As for piercing, I am getting my VCH hopefully before the fall semester starts but I am not sure and I will be getting my septum pierced within the next coming weeks; I can't start piercing up my ears again until I am at my goal stretch, also me and the bf plus my mom have been discussing the possibility of me getting my ears pointed, that is still an idea since it is a very dramatic procedure. As for tattoos, that is on the back burner for now due to money issues but I have plenty of ideas to get done in the fall, I mostly just have an issue with the artist, so another boo!

Aside from all that, I am most likely going to start modeling again, yay!! This time it will last longer than a couple of months and there are a lot of famous photographers I plan to work with. I have updated my hair and make-up skills, so I like to think I look better than I used too ;-).

My confidence is slowly coming back, but I am just hoping to finally be happy with me.

~Alicole Torren~

3 Weeks Of School Left [11 Apr 2010|04:21pm]
[ mood | awake ]

I am dying for May 1 to be here already. I would literally rather be in a medication induced coma then go through these last 3 weeks of school. Really what is killing me is the costume illustrations class.........I am too overworked for my own good dammit.

Other reasons why this semester needs to be over is that I am going to Orlando amusement parks twice in the summer, going to a tattoo convention, getting more tattoos, working out, and sewing my line of plushies and clothes......but the biggest topper of all is that I have NO classes or a job this summer for the first time since the summer before my senior year in high school.

My mom is setting up an appt with me to get tattooed by Kat Von D in the summer, yay! It's nice sometimes that my mom's co-workers have all these connections :-P. Kat will be doing my zombie half sleeve, so yeah no more looking like a little girl, lol.

On another note, I missed Ultra again this year.....lame -_-. Ever since it has passed, it is all I think about. I can't listen to my favorite type of music without being reminded of one of the greatest line-ups at Ultra since I started going in 2006. I am itching for next year, they added a third fucking day!!!! 3 days of wonderful electronic music and bass pumping through my veins, I can't fucking wait!! Nothing is going to stop me from going next year, NOTHING. I already starting planning my outfits and props that I will use....ahhh, I am thinking to far ahead. I still have an entire year to wait :-(.

On a better note, me and the hubby might attend SAE together when I graduate next Spring for the electronic music production classes. I have been feeling like going a different direction with my music and I think this might be the answer for me.

Ok, that's all the some what good things I can talk about, there are other things that are going on that are making things difficult in my life, but I want this to be a happy post, so yeah. End

~Alicole Torren~

Mmmeeeepppp..... [18 Feb 2010|10:16am]
[ mood | meep ]

*Points up to the entry title* I've been doing that alot lately to break the silence or when I am in a good mood. I have no clue how that habit began, but now also when I am frustrated and confused I just...meep. Lol, I think I am getting more fried by the minute thanks to college, I can understand why so many people choose not to go :-P.

So I have been holding up pretty ok with school although the extremely hard work is not due for a week or two for some of my classes and for others, it has already began (bleh to costume illustrations and CAD). I am just going to take a deep breath now that next Fall and Spring semester are set, including internship, yay!!! Now I am just trying to figure out what to do with this summer semester, I can only take one class or else I will have to start paying out of pocket because I will be over graduation hours required by the university.

Meep IRL, *le sigh*.

I was supposed to get my foot tattooed today, but guess what? I dropped a 3 pound book on it yesterday and it's bruised >_<. Maybe tomorrow?

I am going down to Miami the first weekend of March and staying until my birthday, woot! I thought I was going to be all sad to be 21 like I was being before, but now I just see it as I am closer to graduating and costuming :-).

~Alicole Torren~

Meep. [31 Jan 2010|12:01am]
[ mood | anxious ]

So this semester has definitely started off slow, but the due dates are coming fast now. I have been actually going through strange bouts of depression and I have no clue where it is coming from. I guess that is what my stress is turning into? I don't know but it's strange since I am really trying hard to not let things get to me anymore school wise because fall semester will probably be the worse semester ever of my entire college life. *Le Sigh* I just wish that more good things would come my way, I say more good things because I am happy with my bf, family, friends, and pets so far.

Sometimes I just feel like falling away from the world for a little while and putting everything on pause so that I can just take a breath.

~Alicole Torren~

School Time [06 Jan 2010|10:28am]
[ mood | hopeful ]

First day back at school....yay? I don't have any feelings about this semester yet but I am aiming for a good one. I am hopefully going to Islands of Adventure in a week with Jay, my sister, and cousin; even though it is cold, I am pretty sure we will have just the same amount of fun as on a warmer day *crosses fingers*. I might have to lay off my tattoo appointment until it gets warmer because I need to wear flip flops for the healing process, boo! :( Maybe I will get something small that I have been thinking about for a while so I can prepare for the foot work (no pun intended :P). I also may have to lay off the dread extensions because of how cold out it is (synthetic fibers don't do well for keeping ears warm), but that may be up for debate. We will probably attend Ultra this year, but that is also up for debate because we need to see how much money we can save for that fun weekend. In terms of sewing, I have to start/finish my friend Jessica's outfit and start the plushie line I've been designing, plus start dabbling in millinery. On top of it all, I have to keep a constant work out schedule to keep my health in check.

So in short, I have a pretty busy semester both inside and outside of school. Let's just hope everything goes well and I can get things done.

~Alicole Torren~

Funny... [06 Nov 2009|12:49pm]
[ mood | amused ]

Coreographed dancing going on in my head to almost every song I listen to makes me smile. I think I want to learn to be a dancer in my spare time. Dancing a go-go. :)

~Alicole Torren~

Crap!! [19 Oct 2009|09:13am]
[ mood | calm ]

I have so many projects and exams that I don't have time to do a major project in one of my classes due on the 13th of November. I miss the days when I had time for classwork, it's ridiculous how when you get to college school work gets in the way of school work. Damn scheduling :P. Whatever, I am approaching this with calm for now, but we'll see what happens as the due date gets closer. What makes this project a headache is the fact that it's a team project; that's part of why the project hasn't been started yet because my douchebag team members won't set a time for all of us to meet up, all they do is complain about how we don't have time to meet up and by the time I can get a word in, class is over -_-. Fucking merchandising idiots......oh well, I am trying not to let stress get the best of me.

Go with a smile.

~Alicole Torren~

Jay... [12 Oct 2009|09:44am]
[ mood | anxious ]

Babe, sometimes I wish you could go every where with me because when you're around things are less stressful. I wish it was the end of the day already :(.

~Alicole Torren~

School... [05 Oct 2009|09:19am]
[ mood | hopeful ]

Just when I think I have a schedule I can work with, I look to the future weeks of my agenda with my due dates for all my classes and I am sent back into worry mode. I was really hoping this semester would be easier to manage but so far the only thing I have been able to some what manage is my stress. Oh well, I guess I have to start doing things two weeks in advance in order to actually be on time. I knew something felt wrong about this schedule of classes but oh well, you always have that one collection of classes that clash with each other.

In other news, the only things that seems to be doing good right now is our financial situation, our car, our relationship, and our families but other than that things are wishy washy for now. Let's hope for a better few weeks, ok? Yeah, that's it, hope.

~Alicole Torren~

And The Wheels Go 'Round and 'Round [16 Sep 2009|02:32pm]
[ mood | busy ]

So, next week I have tons of things I have to do but I am so fried right now. I have a big assignment due Friday and I am feeling like I am not going to get anything done this weekend because of my want to slump and relax from this week's work. This weekend I have to: Do a design journal assignment for monday, study for a test for monday, study for a test for tuesday, prepare my muslin assignments for draping on wednesday, and turn in my collections assignment on friday so I have to start it during the weekend. Bleh, I think I am just going to do everything last minute as usual >_<.

Just to clarify, I hate stuff that makes me stressed and aggitated right now and so far that is alot of things. Woopty doo for me.....but at least the little things in life can make me happy again :).

~Alicole Torren~

1 Tasted Flesh! -

Kanye West Is A Cockhead [13 Sep 2009|09:42pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

I am so tired of that fucker mouthing off without thinking.

I don't normally give a shit about the media but I have had enough with this fucker pulling the race card. We all know that the only reason that he ran up and ruined Taylor Swift's first moon man is because he thought it was racist that she got the award over Beyonce.

Honestly, this situation itself isn't the thing that bothers me, there are alot of events like this happening around me and seeing it in the media proves my belief that: People who have something different about them will use it to say whatever they fuck they want, be it Black, Homosexual, Disabled, etc. I think all people should respect others not matter what makes us different, when we offend someone it does not make it ok for whatever reason we want to use granted by our difference from them.

I can't tell you how many times I have heard people say this and that because I am black or this and that because I am gay. Get over yourselves people, all people have feelings and get offended even if you think they are "normal" compared to you doesn't mean that they can't be hurt like you.

OK, that's enough. I am heated by this social stupidity.

~Alicole Torren~

P.S. If this looks familiar, it was also on myspace :P.

3 Tasted Flesh! -

I See Trouble On The Horizon [10 Sep 2009|05:00pm]
Starting next week, this semester is going to be kicked into overdrive and I am gladly anticipating the stress, anguish, and pure insanity of the work load to come. Yay....-_-.

But there is good news: our bills are caught up and paid, I am caught up in school work, Jay has more set hours at work, Nazz is recovering really well from surgery, the car is stable and up to date on everything, and the list goes on

So maybe this semester won't be so bad.....maybe.

~Alicole Torren~

I Wish.... [01 Sep 2009|11:18am]
[ mood | blank ]

I wish today was a less stressful day. I hope tomorrow is better, wish me luck?

~Alicole Torren~

4 Tasted Flesh! -

Blah... [30 Aug 2009|01:26am]
[ mood | contemplative ]

I have intense drawing going on right now (fucking wedding gowns), and I am feeling like this semester is going to be a pit of overwhelming stress. But no, I HAVE to think positive....my day is not going as well as I would like (I didn't go to the gym today so I feel cruddy), but at least I can look forward to Jay coming home and mushing my headache away.

I swear that sometimes I am so surprised how him just being in the same room with me makes me feel like anything is possible and that I am not the loser and failure that I think I am (it's a sad result of stress and insecurity).

Onto more lighter things, Nazz is getting her surgery this Wednesday!!! Ahh, I love it. She needs it so bad because her teeth are really putting stress on her health and I just hope that she can hold out for a little longer and makes it through the surgery just fine. I love my rattie babies and I would do anything for them because after all they are my kids ;).

Another thing is my sister started college and is doing swell so far. Yay for her!!! I hope that she deals with the stress better than I do and does well through out her years in school. I love you Tasha ;).

Anyways, I saw Halloween II on Friday (first movie in a while) and let me tell you that it had the most realistic and brutal kill scenes that I have seen in a while. God, I fucking love the crunching, screaming, grunting, and just lovely gore-tastic beauty of it all *hot and bothered*, lol. Speaking of, nothing turns me on more than an undead, rotting, flesh eating beast, and guess what.......Jay has the right medicine for me!! Believe it or not, if I had to categorize our sex life it would be in the horror section, LMAO. We've done blood themed for vampire, rape scene for the brutal murderer, torture for the charming lady killer, deep scratches and bites for the werewolf, strangulation for the confused sex fiend, and now comes the blood and guts for the zombie (this is going to hurt!! :D).

Ok, to get your sick minds of the sexy fun, I'll end it with a random thought. I was thinking about what I wanted to do with my life after college and I have so many things that I want to do that if I graduate and those of you back at home don't have a lot of time to spend with me because I am so busy, remind me that there is more to life than work because I might just forget.

~Alicole Torren~

6 Tasted Flesh! -

Blah Blah Blah... [29 Jul 2009|10:08am]
[ mood | accomplished ]

So I have decided to try and post in this thing more often but it will be a combination of a regular journal and a workout/food journal. I did good for a while losing weight, but I haven't worked out for almost four months and I am not in good shape right now, lol. So yeah, all the workout/food related journal entries will be friends only because I say so :P.

On a different subject I am done with the summer semester once I turn in my paper next week Monday. This paper will probably be a crazy one for me since I missed this Monday and they most likely talked about it then, that's an annoying aspect of college >_<. Anyways, I am quite proud of my project, I put alot of hours into making it and I hope my teacher is impressed.

Speaking of school, I am so nervous for the Fall semester. I hate all the stress, it makes me physically sick and unhappy. I just want it all to be over; however, I am turning over a new leaf to get everything done as early as possible and work my hardest to be the best. It may seem confusing that I am getting all rattled like this, so this is my explanation: Every major has at least some where between 1-4 hard classes for the entire major, and for the Apparel Design major, there are 2 classes (Flat Pattern and Draping). I passed Flat Pattern with a B (2 points from an A -_-) but I am nervous about draping, because it's going to be a different teacher that I am not used to (with a moderate accent I might add) and I have just heard really crazy horror stories. Nonetheless, I have to make sure not to procrastinate this semester or it's my ass; I got my first C last semester and I don't want to start a trend :(.

On a lighter subject, I am officially going to become part of the tattooed community, lol. My friends are trying with all their might to make sure of it for this Fall, but I don't know. It's not that I don't want one, it's just that money is tight and I don't want no small tattoos that I might regret for my first one (go big or go home). Blah, I am probably going to be covered by the time I'm 25 ;). Oh yes, Jay is getting me a present of the piercing variety and I can't say what it will be because it is for his eyes only *wink* and whatever family member or best friend that happens to see me naked, lmao!

This year is going to be nuts.

~Alicole Torren~

Sleep.... [15 Jun 2009|03:19am]
[ mood | blank ]

It just overwhelms me nowadays and sometimes I'm afraid I won't get anything done or ever wake up the next time.

~Alicole Torren~

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